ATTENTION!

You're reading it here first! Remember reading about how I let Jaliyah cry it out for a few minutes? Well..this morning we came downstairs for a morning bottle, after she ate I laid her on the floor for some play time like we do every morning. I went on to check my blog and realized it was suddenly VERY quiet, so I go to check on her and find this....

Yes people, that's right - That's Jaliyah sleeping. No - your eyes are NOT playing tricks on you. It must have been a fluke.

So our day goes on and it was just lunch time so she drank her bottle, I put her down for tummy time and folks...it happened again. She laid her head down and talked herself to sleep! No patting, rubbing, bouncing, singing, nothing. I am sooooo proud!

What to do...What to do..

I know this is a touchy subject and everyone has their opinions, but "crying it out" seems to be my only option now. Jaliyah is a little over 4 months old now and she cries every time someone is not in her face or playing with her. Some may think 4 months is too early for this, and I used to think that. But I go to school full-time and have serious homework to do. Usually I just wait for her to go to bed and I do it, no matter how late I stay up, but now I'm getting behind - I only have 6 classes to go until my degree. Finals are this week - its crunch time. I'm doing all this to make a better life for us. Plus when I go back to work, I'm not going to be around her all the time and then what? I don't want her miserable while I'm at work crying and screaming the whole time. I know no one said this was going to be easy, but why does it have to be so hard? It breaks me heart. I love her!

I decided that it's time. I knew I wasn't going to let her cry for hours, only 7ish minutes. Then I would just come in her sight so she can see me but not play with her. So that's exactly what I did and she did surprisingly well - yes she cried the entire time. But as soon as she saw I was in the room she calmed down to just a whimper. She now is just playing and rolling around.

I know it's going to take a few times doing this and it's going to be a process but I know it'll be good for both of us. I want her to know that yes I will always be there but she can be by herself and be okay too - that I will still be there when she is done.